RECAP
It has been an exhausting few weeks. I haven't been able to blog as much cos my access to to the world wide web has been been severely limited. Thanx to the jaquasses of the corporate world. They have representatives at my job and believe me, they're doing their job. But anyway, I'm getting my old friend Kofie the IS guru to reconfigure my computer. By the time he's done, well, I'll have a PC that even tells me when my cycle is due. Won't that just be marvellous.
To business. This past weekend, I had my family visit. It was beautiful. Would have been perfect if my dreaded hormones, the ones I was scared would mess things up, hadn't taken over. They kinda messed things up a bit, but not in the way I expected. Instead of being cranky and bitchy I got all weepy and emotional. Yup.
On the R'en front, there are days when I want to call him and tell him to just forget it all. Specially these past coupla days. I think PMS has a lot to do with that as well.
But on the whole, he's been cool. Too cool, matter of fact. And I just can't figure how to deal, man. All this trying to keep sane and not cussing him out, is wearing me out. According to that Joe song, Love shd never hurt. So yeah, ours can hardly be described as love, but whatever the hell it is, it shouldn't be this freaking stressful. R'en complained a couple of times about how I barely call him.
It's mostly b'cos I don't want to get stressed out. Simply put. And R'en being who he is, has oooodles of stress for me. Just by speaking.
Naah, it shouldn't stress me this much.
Like Fagin in Oliver,"I think I better think it out again!"