I JUST HAD TO DO IT
I have proved to myself and all those who know me that I am stronger than I think. Now, I know that as long as I am aware that the opportunity is there and I have the possibilities open, man, I can do anything.
I simply amazed myself. And I think the Holy Father above had a lot to do with it. Cos there's no way on his green earth that a mere wisp of a girl like me who hadn't had any sleep all week could up and hit the highways after work on Thurs night, drive 14 hours and still manage to make it back safely. No way without His angels flying along beside me all the way. I could literally hear their wings, I promise you.
I had the best weekend ever in the Burgh. R'en was amazingly affectionate. To hear him tell it, me and all my cousins had had the totally wrong message. He wants to be with me. Right, yup, uh-huh, I think. There's no limit to what these jokers will say when their hormones have flooded their brain. But he was steadfast. All thru the weeekend, he did what every man who is interested in a woman does. All the things.
I wll go in detail later, but let's just say that, as hard as it is to believe, I haven't hard a more difficult time leaving the Burgh. And I've been crying during all my departures from there. I'm not making any sense, Iknow.
So yeah, I had the my best July 4 in these states and I'm just hoping and praying that things escalate from here, cos I wouldn't know what to do with myself. I mean, the first time it happened, I told myself I made a mistake and read things wrongly. If he pulls his antics again, what will I tell myself this time? So every night, I pray, even though, I don't deserve it, that R'en decides to stick to his guns and me, this time.
Pray with me, y'all.