THIS LADY SINGS THE BLUES
Mommy left this morning. A really cold (38 F) one at that. And rainy. Deeply overcast sky. Gray, dull and depressing as hell. Now,i miss my mom and I'm still carrying on the crying i have been doing since Sunday night. Amazing how you can barely get along with someone and yet feel absolutely deprived and devastated when they leave. Well, at least, this time around me and Mommy got along real fine. We were talking like old schoolmates, cos now she thinks I'm grown so she can give me some of the fillas that used to be too sensitive (of course, that's her motherly opinion, if only she knew) for my young ears. I started getting used to coming home from work and having someone there to talk to, and everyday, a warm dinner. Huge mistake.Shouldn't have gotten so doggone use to it. Now I feel exactly how a mother feels when her only child is taken away from her. Amazingly ironic comparison, but that description fits how I feel to a T.
Hopefully, I'll start feeling a little better; these cursed gray skies aren't helping any. I am NOT psychologically, emotionally and physically (in thatOrder) prepared for winter. I'M NOT, I'M NOT, I'M NOT.!!!
That gloomy crap depresses the hell outta me, too many bad memories. AWFUL.
I'm NOT whining! Whatever!